Cities & Rivers

by Aristyles

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released February 24, 2015

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Track Name: Fear Doubt Hate
Ugh imagine stuck inside a box
Pushed into the margins, and you pressured by their thoughts
Imposed upon your view of what you really wanna do
Or what you wanna be so often dreams droppin on the spot
Heart, they say we need it, I believe it,
If we ain’t seeing we need it, then it leaves us in the dark
Pause, they make it easy to defer a dream
Look and observe and see the have not’s
But then again many men make decisions that
Cut em deep long sleep an incision stab
And I’m sure most ya’ll done witnessed that
Self- esteem deflates and make ambitions flat
Its all connected like a point guard’s perspective
When he on court jettin dropping dime off the dribble fast
Hard effort to deliver you a message
Hoping that you won’t forget it like a list on scribble pad

Fear, that’s the weapon of the enemy
Doubt, killing dreams so we’ll never be
Hate, its serparatin our communities
That’s why we keep the hope alive in you and me

My concern was never image I’m preferring that you listen
To the lessons I attempted to embed inside the message
Over drums, melodic tunes, metaphors, and puns
Reflect on my short comings like a lotus monk
I’m not a god I’m a man tryna overcome
This zombie apocalypse that’ll overrun
Our humanity its tragic as a loaded gun
Like displaced immigrants with broken tongues
Third world hopeless ones hunger pains
I take a chance like a dance for some thunder rain
To kill the drought, what they about is instillin doubt
Second guesses fill ya mind with plenty clouds
And overtime and you comply and forever drown
Rob us of our self-worth like we never proud
Amidst the shroud be some snakes among us
A sub-oppressor that bring you down for their come up

Fear, that’s the weapon of the enemy
Doubt, killing dreams so we’ll never be
Hate, its serparatin our communities
That’s why we keep the hope alive in you and me

And sometimes I struggle with my sisters and my brothers
My folks that claim to be they fighting for equity
But what depresses me is at times they do the other
More hurt to one another than healing communities
And some might hear these words and simply label me as bitter
Or being over critical, I’m sayin that we sinners
Unable to progess unless we meet up at the river---
Own the past, and refocus on seein the bgger picture

Fear, that’s the weapon of the enemy
Doubt, killing dreams so we’ll never be
Hate, its serparatin our communities
That’s why we keep the hope alive in you and me
Track Name: Purpose in Mind
Wake up dress up confidence chest up
Trust in ya struggle gotta hustle as you step up
Step through get through hardships and all its
Troubles gotta walk with the will and the promise
To make life betta for self and for whoever
You consider as forever never ever gon quit
Cause shit be getting crazy on the lately
1-80 yes maybe gotta turn it all around come legit
Equip with life lessons to getting ya mind focus
To step in ya grind load it with love ya betta hold it
Like a notice keep informed and focus on what it is
Hopin for the greater be a writer of the script
Survivah with a fist quick to fight in life to get
Ya rights and the pursuit of life and liberty to live
Unravel gems, travel like a captain of a ship
Immortalize your sweat that’s how infinite exist

Oh yes everyday push
Another day here gotta show em what’s good
Everyday shine in any way find
The energy you give with a purpose in mind

Its more than being fresh with the dress cause yes
This quest recommends that you must impress
With that authentic genuineness to press
Push hard like you on that success express
Leave stress… just let it go instead
Cause if it gets to you there goes ya best
Don’t hold ya breathe that’s a dose of death
You betta off cool calm like the coldest fish
On a swim while the river still flowing quick
You see it as a challenge not hop-e-less
Gotta exercise will with the skill you got
Let that energy spill still connect the dots
Be the coolest quarterback in that pocket dawg
And you elevating fast like a rocket launch
A lotta confi-donts with that work you put in
Overcoming doubt, that’s the sweat you push with

Oh yes everyday push
Another day here gotta show em what’s good
Everyday shine in any way find
The energy you give with a purpose in mind

From urban poor across shores to first world streets
Suburbs and back to where the boondocks be
The 99 grinds, it’s a time of need
And the assembly lines make you mindlessly
Be drones you getting owned, the CEO’s and greed
Go together like fight with the folks beneath
For a better life or what its supposed to be
Push while you fight to overthrow the beast

Oh yes everyday push
Another day here gotta show em what’s good
Everyday shine in any way find
The energy you give with a purpose in mind
Track Name: Just a Man
I just wanna love I just wanna be
I just wanna feel like I could be free
Do it for my folks and do it for my fams
I’m just a man with a heart and these hands

Learn, a conscious minds breeds a heavy heart
Maybe scars that leave ya hurt pain giving birth
But from afar we rather see the distant stars
Searchin a mirage that defers you from your worth
And so we starve and hunger becomes the bar
The standard we accept and set upon us all
What I’m tryna say is we accepted that we fall
To the extent that we don’t ask what is the cause
Pay us less labor greed never tasted sweet
It be the taste of sweat tears and the blood we bleed
Under siege an assault on really being free
I wanna build life of purpose so could I please
Get a chance, some magic beans, or golden lamp
A rain dance, a buddist chant with some prayer beads
To go with hustle the daily struggle for hope to breath
And give me wisdom like I’m searching for an older me

I just wanna love I just wanna be
I just wanna feel like I could be free
Do it for my folks and do it for my fams
I’m just a man with a heart and these hands

Got a son and a wife now, can’t lie down, gotta focus bite down
Take the bullet take the hit transform pain to create a gift
Iron will time will tell whether or not I’ll make a shift
Make a change, its dangerous, save the kids yes right now…
I often wonder why the jungle take us under
And so tragedy is rooted on a system needin hunger
Plus glutton made exclusive to the few that plays the music
On the speakers and the structures that each institution uses
Abusive by design while I’m trying to find the line
Between my 1st world privilege and past colonized
The complexity that I grapple on the daily
The attitude of pay me verses freedom must arrive
Do I fight or comply? Am I caught up in maybe?
Ain’t no telling what or why but I gotta feed my baby
Feed the family its crazy when confronted with decisions
Values in collision while I’m tryna make livin (cause)

I just wanna love I just wanna be
I just wanna feel like I could be free
Do it for my folks and do it for my fams
I’m just a man with a heart and these hands
Track Name: Image
They say be a rapper, a rapper people like
An image to consume that’s appealin to the eyes
A tough guy, arrogant, cold heart, masculine
Gun talk rapping gotta grab em with a lie
I ain’t saying that its wrong to talk about the violence
As long as people understand what causes all this fightin
Context matters, a method to the science
We use to drop gems but they pressure us to minus
The narrative of life so that you fit into a type
Of manufactured hype, rapper purchasing they likes
Judgin what is ill free of substance on the mic
Its like buzz over everything insultin our minds
Measured by your followers and never for your rhymes
An image to project it’s the cleverest disguise
A so-called boss but your art is compromised
No wins just losses and toxins full of lies

They say image be everything image be ya life
Naw, image over everything like everything’s a lie
If image is bigger then what happens when you die
Does the picture that you paint kill the soul livin inside

Young girls watchin’ reality TV
Parents at work, they ain’t knowing what she sees
Buy this buy that in order to be she
Celebrity status follow and feed me
Thinkin all you gotta be is pregnant and 16
Put you on the screen and now you living your big dreams
Baby turned accessory 21st century
Poison for your mind understand the severity
Ads in excess, causing trauma to the head
Lack of self-esteem like its fallin to its death
Hope you watchin where you step cause this problem still extends
To young boys that get so insensitive with less
Compassion to express what they see as being weak
So they hyper-agress, be as hard as concrete
Trapped inside a box putting thoughts all to sleep
Just following the image, make em opposite of free

They say image be everything image be ya life
Naw, image over everything like everything’s a lie
If image is bigger then what happens when you die
Does the picture that you paint kill the soul livin inside

Mainstream images misconstrue cool
With cool being bad so bad they wanna do
Or at least emulate a certain image to a cue
In leui of their refusal to confront whats true
Confront whats you the real behind the oohs
The smoke and mirrors we needin a clearer view
Passed all the booze, the partying like a fool
Spendin your parents money but never will finish school
And its true we as people switch on fly
When you workin and you searchin within you to fake a smile
Cause cake is on the line, bills pay it on time
So we teeter on the line between the image that we try
To get people to see and what buried deep inside
It’s a climb we take in world so cold
An rotten apple pie that we all got sold
To conform to an image in exchange for your soul

They say image be everything image be ya life
Naw, image over everything like everything’s a lie
If image is bigger then what happens when you die
Does the picture that you paint kill the soul livin inside
Track Name: Water Well
Water flow water go Water cold water snow
Water for the soil and seed consuming so the plant could grow
Water rain wash the pain water for the desert soul
Water well clean water dreams that’s what we need it for


If you had a well of water, would you make sure that its clean
And if I was little boy Jack, I’ll plant them magical beans
Punch the sky like people power, taller than the largest tower
Harvest every lemon, produce juice at every hour
Now some hustlas turn cowards when life devours dreams
A little money and some power make that water well unclean
You hear poison in their voices and see slither in their schemes
Packaged in nice plastic and the taste of it is sweet
But the second you comsume it, diabetes in your stream
Are we livin to be dying or dying to just to live
Wanna be higher than Orion but we think it can’t exist
So some think that this is it, enslaved by your own limits
And so ambitions feel like powder or sand spillin out your hands
Like hate to a newborn baby, too young for the child to grasp
So you fumble fluster stu-stutter words that you mutter
Jealousy takes over, askin’ Cain where is your brother

Water flow water go Water cold water snow
Water for the soil and seed consuming so the plant could grow
Water rain wash the pain water for the desert soul
Water well clean water dreams that’s what we need it for

It’s hard to win without sinnin, so easy to be a villain
Projecting you are spotless but you lyin to the children
A little dirt so subtle mixed in, in the koolaid that we drinkin
A speck stuck inside your eye, large enough to blur your vision
Cause I wanna make a livin, yea I wanna make a livin
I wanna build a house with these two hands and all of my ambitions
I wanna nail my dreams into it with a hammer made of sweat
And hold it all together with my passion as cement
Cookin truth within the kitchen, circulate it through the vents
Capitalism got us trippin competition so intense
Got us warring over scraps, feel like a turtle on its back
A hurdle in yo path and further up the earth has cracks
Drunken to a stuper, super swerving on the track
I’m tryna to maneuver, I’m student with a knack
To turn manure into plants with a ruler and some math
Measuring the water from the well with every task

Water flow water go Water cold water snow
Water for the soil and seed consuming so the plant could grow
Water rain wash the pain water for the desert soul
Water well clean water dreams that’s what we need it for
Track Name: Four Women
This woman with white hair as long as her old age
Walks slowly with a cane, shoulder and back pain
Like she built a thousand ships for Spain like a slave
Got a face full of wrinkles with no teeth to even smile
Tattoos on her hands representive of her tribe
Got bruises on her sides that she managed to survive
And her eyes produces rain not a drizzle but a sky
Full of black clouds tryna makes us understand why
But she speaks a different tongue that most can’t understand
And most leave her to herself like she from another land
Like she from a distant planet further out for us to measure
Some say that she’s a legend and her name was Estrella


Hot like a kettle got a special for the devil’s dance
Put them dollars up clothes down she bare it fast
Intoxicating as a liquor glass, give her cash
Dishonest men but for her she wear the biggest mask
Just a little laugh, maskin that it is really bad
Hopin that song ain’t long and that it finish fast
But its feelin likes its replay listen to what he say
Boss on her case so that he’s paid
So its on to next as her hips sway
Back and forth she was forced into this work
Forced to be silent deny her of her worth
The boys call her Baby but she prefers cursed


A Pinay in her 30s wakin’ early with a bag
Packed neatly with lunch and dinner because the fact is that
She got a double shift, hustle get money, hungry people in her country live
Ugliest conditions like a punishment
Economy has plummeted destruction is normalcy
She said that it is forcin me
To leave the family and carry these burdens
Hurtin while she workin learnin how to cope with distance
How to cope with missin all her children
She a victim of the imperialism
The greedy corporations money worshipping religion
Everday is hard and her heart is feeling heavy
Their mother is stranger known by the name of Mary

This Pinay’s lips is as pouty as they come
And her walk and demeanor is as heavy as a drum
She curses in Tagalog like their poison in her lungs
And theres fire in her eyes that is hotter than the sun
She will cut the first whoever wanna bring it to her, none
The growl in her belly says she workin for them crumbs
The slant on her shoulders says she carryin a ton
Carrying a legacy that is stronger than a gun
A legacy that’s added through the generation’s sum
And she speaks with a passion like tomorrow never comes
So she runs without stoppin very few options
Fierce as a storm and they call Aunt Laban
Track Name: Underdog
Peace to Rocky Balboa, Ponyboy Curtis
Young Siddhartha on his journey still searchin
Young Esperanza from Mango street
Barry Horowitz shock em when Skip got beat
2014 Giants got them experts silent
3 times in 5 years let them trophies speak
Glen from Walking Dead stay one step ahead
And yes his lady white right I believe
In the underdog, often overlooked and ignored
Underrepresented yet they kick them doors
Down on the way up, a Casious Clay punch
Champ at 22 already the world shake up
Never glitter, smoke and mirrors, or the make up
Understand I’m Jackie Chan never fake stunts
Never made up raw like that steak blood
A pair of PF flyers fully laced up

This is a song for underdogs
Of course they ain’t showin love at all
Hopin that you quit you retire
That’s gasoline that’s fuel for the fire

I’m little Mac swingin fast in a title match
Megaman with low life but he fighting back
5 “7” Spudd Webb dunkin over heads
I’m Macguyver stay alive just escaping death
I’m the tortoise while hare moving way ahead
He think he winning but in the end I’m takin this
A young Picasso when the critics was hatin it
B-rabbit on stage not afraid to spit
Walter White when he just started makin meth
Before Gus got got before he makin bread
I’m Bruce Lee barely breathin in the Game of Death
Fredrick Douglas with the hunger to embrace a pen
Ender Wiggins killing the competition
A hail mary pass in the last two seconds
A prayer in air a game winning shot
Tianamen square when them tanks got stopped

This is a song for underdogs
Of course they ain’t showin love at all
Hopin that you quit you retire
That’s gasoline that’s fuel for the fire
Track Name: Survival feat. Orion One
The declaration of human right is urgent
From the place where you sleep and the place that you work in
I’m talkin’ bout the wages talkin’ bout the basics
Cause nowadays you ain’t human unless yo ass famous
Fuck a racist politician I’m hatin’
The game is to rob the poor, its war that we facin’
Cause hate is when they want more that bacon
That they robbin and rapin, its colonization
Imperialism, takin’ over the nations
Elite masons controlling the information
The population distracted from devastation
The lack of the health care, food, and education
Them snakes don’t care cause they bringing the cake in
They ain’t sharing one bit, we losin our patience
Hungry as beast we gon’ show em what change is
Swing a bolo at the system, its over, so take this

Hook
Orion One's verse
Hook

More jobs, more schools, freedom and safety
Guarantee all folks have freedom from slavery
Regardless of your race or whatever your shade be
Cause freedom of speech is not something they gave we
Are entitled to these rights as a human being
It’s a matter life cause the deeper reason
Is not about the green and monetary profits
It’s the basics to live its bigger than a promise

Orion One's verse
Hook
Track Name: Bolo Yeung
Muscle to battle you, hit you with a classic move
Straight villain killing the competition
Kumite te turn they back I’m still winning
Chong Li chant understand I’m making victims
You are next, got Frank Dux quiverin
Don’t nobody want it, ain’t nobody here stepping
I will handle you, strangle you, with one eye missin
Double Impact crack your back in all directions
Get your lessons, coward hide like they burrow
Featherweight punches couldn’t hurt my pectorals
You better give up I can hit you with a mix up
Mastermind I’m a lot more than a big thug
Chinese Herculeas loose of a murder spree
Elbows slice like surgery causing big cuts
Bolo Yeung and nobody wanna step up


Kung fu legend king of all villains
Trainin since I was 10 its my beginning
Don’t ever mistake, I’ve worked with all the greats
I got an Ironheart never softer than you grapes
Peace to Black Belt Jones and Bruce never hate
So Enter the Dragon or the Game of Death
If you could take my kick then you done faced the best
I’m bitter, black licorice, ya’ll some rasinets
I’m pump iron, grindin, never take a rest
Biceps bigger than 80 baby legs
Tiger palm strike that be breakin necks
I’m fire flame bright burn dangerous
Still training past 60 ya’ll can’t diss me
Respect how I lift these weights like a frisbee
Top villain no doubt ya’ll list me
Kung fu cinema respect my history
Track Name: Commodity of Time
Life… is always harder than you think
The hardest difficulty culminating into this
Tribulations and suffering surrounds your circumference
Feels like its crumbling ground below rumblin
Looking for some sun behind the clouds hope it comin in
Rain coming down weather’s loud and its thunderous
Askin why we hurt and I’m told its God’s punishment
Or life just happens so we keep strugglin
Hustlin ya skill putting muscle to ya will
On the double multi-triple grindin harder than a drill
Gotta father mother real dedication of your best
Nothing less then better effort with whatever that you bless
Under pressure under stress overcome it nonetheless
An epic through the ages like a hero on his quest
Navigatin through the jungle slay the dragon in its rest
And the treasure is that heart beatin hard beneath ya chest

Yup daily movin through life
Spendin minutes the commodity of time
Steady travel through these passages I write
And I keep it elevated tryna kiss the sky

The moment, when-you-feel-it, you been pushed to your limit
When you search within your soul to find the energy to finish
Draw from memories, an image, to carry you, you lifted
Just enough to keep you up above the water that you swim in
Sharks and sharps reefs, dangers that scar deep
A lyricist whose heart speaks to four bar beats
Struggle written on the dashboard and old car seats
Tattoos of bloody wounds that won’t stop leak
Carry pain like tragedy oppression tryna bury me
Bury my people an attack on our capacity
To rearrange reality fly defy gravity
Bursting through the canopies crossing over galaxies
Travel back in time to kill the king and his majesty
I come from a people where survival is a mastery
…And I’m inspired for the moment
Take a deep breath and let the ancestors know it

Yup daily movin through life
Spendin minutes the commodity of time
Steady travel through these passages I write
And I keep it elevated tryna kiss the sky
Track Name: Make Due
And whatever you do
You got to make due
And that’s the way it goes
Life is full of hurt but we can’t let go oh no

I own a minivan 95 Mazda
My ride elevated like I’m in a helicopter
And I ain’t tryna race, I ain’t into all that drama
Cause gasoline too high and I ain’t got alotta
Dollas for the tank, I’m not baller with the bank
6 cylinders, killin ya, funds is what I lack
Cause my whip be breakin’ down like R&B tracks
Alignments, tune ups, brakes and all of that
I put money on my ride, and people think its still whack
I’m not dude with the benz, shiny with gloss black
I’m a hub cap rollin, steerin wheel controlling,
Got my window wiper movin in the back…
Gotta floor that pedal on the freeway medal
Movin steady just to feel a little fast
As a matter of fact I’ma cruise for the day
Roll like cassette tapes smooth in the lane

And whatever you do
You got to make due
And that’s the way it goes
Life is full of hurt but we can’t let go oh no

Growin up understand the cash was down
When I outgrew my clothes I wore hand-me-downs
From my older cousins, fams, ya boy got clowned
An ocean of insult hopin ya boy would drown
That’s some 1st world problems, other folks stravin
Americans spending they rent to look large when
They working for that minimum, very few options
Lack of priorities spend with no caution
That’s a pit my mother would refuse to ever fall in
Substance over style, purpose over flossin
Bought 10 dollar shoes that her son could walk in
Felt out of place like my kicks was martian
Them kids was talking but the problem is
You can look rich but we all improverished
Mama save lots for a future college kid
Makin due cause I knew she good on promises

And whatever you do
You got to make due
And that’s the way it goes
Life is full of hurt but we can’t let go oh no
Track Name: Receive and Return
Love that’s the reason that I do it now
Cause without that love then we movin down
Up put them palms to the sun above
Know the cycle of receive and return the love

I’m sorry I ain’t been around
I mean it half the time cause really I been busy now
Became a father and a husband, tryna make em proud
Been feeling tired to be partying and getting loud
I can’t be getting down with all that drinkin
Cause really I been thinking I wanna live me a life
The type where I can grow old, wrinkles and canes,
Maybe minimal pain with the clearest of sights
To see the meaning of it all, whether winter or fall
Summer, spring, I’d like to think I’ve been hearing my call
In the classroom, rowdy afternoons and long mornings
Inner city schools where youth got fews options
I’m thinking that truth ain’t enough or being conscious
Of these systems of the oppression when them children is starving
For attention, for some love, and their exterior is tough
And if you really think about it they ain’t different from us

Love that’s the reason that I do it now
Cause without that love then we movin down
Up put them palms to the sun above
Know the cycle of receive and return the love

And so my mama’s getting older
And her body often achin like she carrying a boulder
Hesitant to say she slowin or to say that her age
Got her feelin so exhausted like the lines on her face
And so these rhymes on the page is a record of time
And sometimes its embrace takes a toll on ya mind
Body soul cause we tryna find gold in these mines
Like its 49 sacrificin traveling west
And yes I got some goals and so I’ll gather my best
Acquire a couple tools that I’ll lather in sweat
Desire for that new never aspire for less
Like mama when she ask am I retiring yet?
She want to travel and rest while I’m turning my gears
I’m tryna write my first novel in a couple of years
Some more songs and poems to inspire my peers
I’m just returning ya’ll the favor, ya’ll the reason I’m here

Love that’s the reason that I do it now
Cause without that love then we movin down
Up put them palms to the sun above
Know the cycle of receive and return the love

I’m swapping liquor for a convo with tea
Whoever on rotation for Ms Ross and Supremes
A white tee and baggy jeans for that interview please
Hyper masculine bravado for creating some peace
Tryna change our tomorrow, so I’m playing for keeps
In the present, and every second time allows us to be
Leave my younger self behind at least the immature me
And keep pursuing, getting wise, with the allure of our dreams

Love that’s the reason that I do it now
Cause without that love then we movin down
Up put them palms to the sun above
Know the cycle of receive and return the love
Track Name: A Little Less Heavy
Sometimes a brother gotta chill out
Have a seat, have a feast, where we can all pig out
Get drunk or stay sober as long as I’m close ta
My folks my fams just know that I’ll hold ya
Down cause ya man gotta hang like a posta
You ain’t gotta ask grab glass we gon toast ta
Another year passed recognize hustle
Recognize work recognize struggle
No we can’t burn out let that sunshine touch you
Wash away the stress let that love just run through
Your soul and your body cause we love to party
But not all the time cause the grind don’t stop see
Its all connected, the stress from the hectic
But yo don’t forget it, the struggle is collective
You ain’t gotta feel all alone like you friendless
Cause unity is the beat that we’ll gon step with

1-2 Everybody Step
Now 3-4 Take a deep breath
And 5-6 Exhale gently
7-8 Feel a little less heavy


You ain’t gotta live your life like every second fight
At one point a brother out here gotta sleep
Gotta recharge and rest ease off ya step
Take a moment to just meditate and breath
Cause if its everyday you bleed, eventually you die
Cause that tank runs empty, that water runs dry
Them limbs get tired, you getting heavy eyes
You lose that fire, that spark, that stride
It all about balance, the self and the movement
Everyday challenge, health and improvement
And so I remind you to take some time to
Relax and let ya unwind
Reflect on your progress, your growth and process
Settle like cool glass of wine
Cause sometimes its ugly but please just trust me
Everything is gonna be fine

1-2 Everybody Step
Now 3-4 Take a deep breath
And 5-6 Exhale gently
7-8 Feel a little less heavy

This is for my people people people my people
Understand that sometimes we all need to
Take a breath, one moment it don’t mean you quit
Recenter, recollect, spend time with your kids
Catch up on sleep, grab something to eat
Make sure that your body ain’t sick
Cause you don’t work til you die, you work so we live
Yeah, you already know what it is

1-2 Everybody Step
Now 3-4 Take a deep breath
And 5-6 Exhale gently
7-8 Feel a little less heavy
Track Name: Struggle Begins
Sometimes I wish reality was simply a dream
Or a book or a movie with a climatic scene
Where the climax is my people getting what they need
To be honest I need to eat too, drink, and breathe
But it’s a mystery the distortion of necessity
I won’t lie I ask sometimes will we ever be
Free? Maybe not if we sit in our seats
Glued to screen like the shoes glued to the cleats
And the struggle is deep that I’m fighting inside
While simultaneously trying to build on the side
And its like I’m livin a lie when I’m tryin to speak
About revolution when I got nikes on my feet
I’m left in confusion like whats the day of the week
As I struggle with this troubled double personality
Cause looking for clarity amidst the fallacies
Its hard like divorced families living happily

It is the struggle…the struggle we
Face on the daily… to be free
Cause in order to survive
Then change starts from inside

I’ve been called out, checked, straight put in my place
By my peers for some years and I really must say
That I appreciate the criticism and advice
To look inside my mind to self reflect and analyze
To expose my flaws like it just got televised
I intend to make that change after I apologize
And it might take a few tries, repeated conservations
Just know that I am trying I am thankful for you patience
Perfection is my aim like tryna rhyme with perfect cadence
I’m looking to improve tryna be well educated
Instead of having no clue like my name was ignoramus
No matter what the place is I expect to get checked
If I fail to be aware or politically correct
I take criticism well I’m not the type to get depressed
And unless you say otherwise I will do the same
Cause acting like its good is a disappointing shame

It is the struggle…the struggle we
Face on the daily… to be free
Cause in order to survive
Then change starts from inside
Track Name: Out
This sort of feel like a good bye song
I was never bout the green, this ain’t no goolie dawg
I ain’t sayin that I’m leavin that like this good guy gone
I’m just sayin, there’s a sayin that the good die young
I’m a young cat with some stats but I’m not god
Never gun rap just love raps I’m leavin ya’ll
Till next time rewind this track and pause
And reflect on the year and how it passed us all
And so my caption’s raw, I got a passion for
Teaching truth to the youth so we can pass it on
This is a passage of, a sort of rights of way
A half revolution like the night turn day
The other half come later, it ain’t right to stay
Gotta move with my earth and connects them rays
Gotta learn how to heal, so concern for the real
The hands on the clock still turn like a wheel
So ya man gotta walk til it hurts in the heels
Ache in ya knees like ya jerkin for years
But this jerk got a verse to rehearse for ya peers
This one is on the house like I served you a beer

I used to think that me and music would be breakin’ up
Upset about the fact that I ain’t getting major buzz
But I’m good with this circle of local love
I’m Martin Lawrence, I’m live and I know “WZUP”
Yeah I keep it “COLE” even Gina know
I’m tryna reach the globe, maybe reach a soul
Maybe 3 or 4 now why they sleeping for?
They like a bear in a cave while the season snows
On the surface is a world that we ain’t seen before
They telling me to hush cause that’s where all dreamers go
So I ma dream some mo, for those who givin’ up
9 to 5 hate they job so they drink it up
I bite my lip when they tellin’ me they live it up
And I ain’t sayin that I’m better, I just give a fuck
I keep them lessons up, I ain’t forgettin’ cause
This ain’t a salad for anyone to dress it up
Now this ain’t less than love, I call it therapy
Cause this process right here bring out the best in me
A self trajectory, knowing what is possible
Open to a dialogue, I try to be responsible
It’s like that ya’ll it’s like that
Self-reflection is a must so give thanks
It’s like that ya’ll it’s like that
Forward movin while remembering the past
I’m out
Track Name: If Tomorrow
Ugh….Its hard to be positive
Venting on the track as I author it
Tryna find meaning, tryna find healing
Tryna stay up amongst all of this
Choas another loss you wanna quit
Escape like you smoke a marijuana stick
Hate self so you down an alcoholic drink
A lotta stress over media and politics
Got us all sick but we conscious
I guess the more we know the more problems
I guess the more we know the less options
Or so it feels like, I’m soundin’ heartless
A little hopeless like I’ma fall quick
Into a box where they keep them dreams locked in
Gotta stay standin’ gotta take chances
Remind self that this life is a great challenge
It takes love, takes hope, its takes practice
Disicipline in everything stay balanced
Lessons I’ve learned, I’m tryna stay at it
Produce action cause that is where great happens

If tomorrow comes then I know
I was meant to be here
If tomorrow comes and I’m gone
Then I hope I gave my all

Sometimes its hard to see the visual
See the truth beyond the sole individual
And the cards that life is still giving you
You give a lot but you get no recipricol
Thats the way it is they say that life kid
Like its normal like we used to all this violence
Another one gone another minus
Another number that they mark on that die list
Used to death but don’t know what life is
Or what a smile is, we in a crisis
Pacified and distracted to buy this
Buy that to achieve a kind of flyness
Thats artofficial temporary at best
Consume you a fool that what the devils expect
So I’m writin this letter to self or whoever
To remember when its hard that you better than this
…And I’ll sing song, maybe Redemption Song
Maybe Lauryn Hill or Nina Simone
Gotta be strong and gotta find purpose
Keep life movin on and stay learnin

If tomorrow comes then I know
I was meant to be here
If tomorrow comes and I’m gone
Then I hope I gave my all